Something from all this though. All the connections, realizations, bizarre manifestations, not sure if I can put it into words though, but all try.
There is no past, no future, no heaven, no hell, no god, no devil, or spirits or angels, there is only millions of different beings experiencing one eternal endless now. It’s all just one huge moment, with millions of perspectives. Nothing else exists at all except this exact present moment, and this moment will move, change and evolve but it will always be now and we will only ever be exactly where we are and it’s all completely connected because nothing else exists except this present breath and if we just pause and become aware of that then the moment we are experiencing suddenly becomes eternal in the moment we realize it’s eternal. There’s no where else to be but in this exact now and when we are fully now, age stops, time stops, worries stop, promises of some kind better whatever whenever however stops and we realize this is our heaven, we are exactly where, In all of eternity, that we choose to be, and we can do anything anything at all with this now because it is always, it is everywhere and it is everyone and it is everything and we are it and it is us.
January 24, 2020