Sun, Aug 21, 2005, 8:30 AM
to sweet_jane17 we are hanging by a thread and the things that you said are killing me so deep that I can hardly breathe not sure what I want hoping it's along the lines of what you need and I'm tyring to get better trying to get over to many words unsaid, unread and I'm trying to think clearly why do you stay so near me sometimes... I wish I had it in me to feel as fine as you do you still seam to love so much and I'm barely in touch at all can't fall when I have been left uncaught so many times past everything moves so fast and once again you want it all back how much longer can I hang in till I feel what you feel again... forever I soppose as this is what I chose and I have a life time left... to remember how to trust again.
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Aug 5, 2005, 2:31 PM no chance of forever I tell the truth then sit and stare frighten myself because who I am hits me more fiercely than I'd like to admit sometimes thoughts of you turned out to be a brief excursion from reality what a brilliant diversion you would be but that would have been all and I have deeper things left on my mind than a tumble with someone who is mostly blind to the essence of my nature sometimes it's far too easy to find something someone to help me unwind but I talk some sense into myself you move on to someone else it would not have mattered in the end our lives are to different much better as friends since we have no chance whatsoever of any sort of together forever why hurt each other when we could both find a lover anywhere any place anyway. |
Charity Janisse
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