I'm DONE
trying to be friendly with rude thoughtless people I don't know why for a while I tried to make friends I did not actually want and to be a part of a particular group that seamed to have a lot in common with me... but there is so much more to friendship than appearences and I sware I thought I'd learned this lesson already seams like I should know by now that in life we connect with people or we do not it's that simple I had a group of friends in a town I lived in once and they were my whole life my family when I didn't have one but apparently most of them don't even remember me and I come to this town looking for the same scene trying to recreate what I once had with different people that seamed like those but these are not and they have eachother anyway I'm finally ready to say I don't want that life anymore not here nor there not now because then is gone and will not be again and these new people don't give a damn about me and those others don't even fucking remember me why would I try to like people I don't ... I'm not really sure seamed like the thing to do but it didn't make me happy so I'm definitely done trying connections are made one on one indivisual friends we can lean on there's no getting in with a group or a scene unless you want to be one of them and I will never be anything except what I am so why kiss their ass like I'm in some highschool class I have no fucking idea... but I won't be doing it again. untied ( the ending or the beginning that brought it on) This is all coming together memories mixed with hunger ... thought had passed forever but the past is much too clever it all comes back what is what was what will always be it all is and still a part of me the pieces that make truces we break hearts we take loves we forsake it all goes it all stays I move on to another phase of life a wife to fire and earth transform rebirth and what came first the ending or the beginning that brought it on the beginning that moved me on I ramble I ramble on and yet... I see you as clear today as any day ever oh the past is much too clever to let me sever the thought you brought the life I tried .you lied. I am completely untied untied untied untied. -- Charity
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