neither this nor that

​Mon, Aug 29, 2005, 10:42 PM
to sweet_jane17
cast out

neither this nor that
nor they nor we
I heard the words but did not see
was this your request
what a tepid plea
and I am not impressed
fell down
cast out
forgot
exactly how
to say or do what I said never
for
and I began to believe
that there was a need
for something else outside of me
was to blind to fucking see
the truth
don't stand
where I can see
the shadow of
your face on the ground
even that is
to close for me
when you're around
I sigh
throw another
little
temper tantrum and
try my damndest not to cry
I'm such a girl
such a fucking girl these days
what did you say
did I go back
lose track
old letters
sounded better
than what your saying now
and how you caught me
borrowed sold bought me
it's a lie
another god damn lie
and I believed
for a moment I just
really wanted to believe
that some one some where
was honest
and could care
but fuck it
fuck you
fuck them all.
You're just the same
you're just the fucking same as everyone
so don't stand
near
put out your hand
I fear
you're just another bull shit man
is that your plan
get
near to me
pretend to be
something sacred
unique and deep
I don't want it
I don't buy it and honestly

I'd just rather get some sleep.