​You didn’t see me in the light
nor in the night

did you?

you did not see me from a distance
you did not recognize
me
at all…

did you not see me
passing like a shadow through the trees
did you not see me
gliding like a ghost along the breeze
did you not see my reflection in the glass
as I did pass
like a sigh
from a thought of yours
to a breath of mine

~ did you not know me
ageless and eternal
touch my hand
and feel the energy
that burns
beneath my skin
did you not notice the stars
watching us
through the window
when we met
and the moon curious
as it peered at us
wondering if we would remember
or forget

And did you
or did you not remember
that as we travel
through life
we unravel
the mystery of our souls
the mystery we hold
~ where we come from
where we go
did you not see me
did you not know
that I exist
just the way you did
within
the place in between
the seen and unseen
and it was your smile
that brought me back
once more
to this track
of reality
​
I needed to exist
to be
human one time more
to see you
touch you
again
feel the heat of your skin
against my skin
even when
you did not see me
clearly
know me
or remember
that there 
was ever a we
in between earth
and the eternal
ever present
existence
so far beyond
this track of reality.

​Charity Janisse

TO LAND

She’s not like others
You can’t own her
Just borrow
And share a moment
If she wants it.
But she’s a ghost
Unseen
Unknown…
And she travels
Too occupied with
Making the most
Of exploring this universe
To be taken and kept
She’s not like others
She’s a spirit
Fearless
Wrapped in skin
But living in
The earth
The Dirt
The sky
She’ll fly
And rest in
The eye
Of a storm…
And you
You’re it you know
The only one she ever wanted
Badly enough
To land
For a moment.

-Chatity

It was still so dark this morning as the sun came up that the bottom of the photo is blurry, but I like it! I think it goes well with the poem. The image to me shows that sometimes everything is more clear when we look up... :) And some of us are happier flying than landing ;). ~ Charity

Don't make excuses for your emotions
Tempers and passions ~
Be you.
Feel
Need
Want 
Love 
Express.
If you are angry
There is probably a good reason
Don't ignore it
Look deeper 
Understand it
Accept who you are.
You are not here 
To fit another's mold
You are not here to 'behave'
You are not here to walk quietly at the back of a line
Not even questioning 
Where the others will lead!
You have a heart
A soul, a mind
You have as much right to follow your passions as anyone who ever
Existed.
You were not born to follow
Anything or anyone except your own
Inner guidance.
And your inner guidance is good!
It is so very good.
Within you is the knowledge and understanding of all the ages.
Trust yourself
Love yourself
Feel your feelings
Be exactly, exactly, exactly you.
No matter what anyone else says or thinks 
It is imperative to be your true self
Because no one else can be that person
No one else can be exactly you!
And the universe needs you 
To be you. 
But more importantly
You 
Need you
To be you!!!

~Charity 

​I do not claim to be
Perfectly adjusted
All together
Well balanced
Or even
Completely sane,
But I am
A creature who lives
For the word behind my name.
I live for love.
I have survived
More than most should see ~
(In one life time
At least)
And I have lived
Wild and recklessly…
I do not claim
To know exactly
What I am doing
Where I am going
Or what will happen next,
And I am not perfectly satisfied
With this life I have
At present
Who is?
But I make my choices
Good or bad
Healthy or not
Logical, sound
Or utterly foolish,
I make my choices
Based on the word behind my name.
I make my choices for love.
And in a world of people
Who every single day
Make choices for the sake of fear
Choosing what I love
Over all
At all times
It has to mean something.

~Charity

 I did not know at the time
but I had fallen in love.
The kind of love that makes you tremble
under your skin
from a place further within
than you realized existed inside you
before then.

The kind of love that feels like the deepest breath
you could take in your life.
Like that first breath of air
after you dive
deep into the water
and swim further under
than you ever meant to go
and your air is running low
and you realize too late
that there is not enough breath left
for the return trip.
So you shoot for the surface of the water
you can barely see the sun
for a minute you think you'll never arrive
you see images of your life
passing rapidly through your mind
and then suddenly
there you are -
You’ve emerged once again
into the world of oxygen.
You're above the water
free of impending death
free of the cold dark pressure
that would have taken you under
and from this world forever.

And that is when you take the deepest breath

The fullest, strongest breath
that you have taken in your life. 
Your chest expands 
and your throat feels tight
as you nearly choke on the air
you are drinking in
so greedily
so hungry just to breathe and breathe
so intensely thrilled to be alive.

That's what
this love feels like.

That first breath so strong
after nearly losing your life.
It stops me in my step some times
and takes me far away
from everything
that I can see in front of me,
and this love
it causes me
to shiver, shudder, quiver
from head to toe.
I lose all thought
and only know
that I am more alive
for that one sacred meeting 
with a person who
​would teach me
a new perception of love
that would ultimately
change my life forever.

Charity

​6/19/2014

​Skies Thoughts and Signs
Sometimes I lay awake at night and think about you and when I will see you again.
I will wrap my arms around your neck
Press my body deeply into yours and just breathe you in.
It doesn't matter if it is a public place
An airport or a train car.

I will see you, you will smile
My eyes will tear up
Then I will cross the space left between us
The space that has spanned life times
And beyond ...
I am so finished with the space between us...
You will take my hand as I get close
So I don't hesitate in disbelief that you are finally standing there before me,
And then I will wrap my arms around your neck
And hold you till I'm sure that you are made of flesh and blood
And we exist together for once
In the same realm, the same world, the same place in time... after all
After all this time.
It's been too long my love.
I am tired of waiting, I am finished looking,
I have hoped and been wrong once too much
You're on your own now in this hunt
For the one
I give up...
If you're half the man that I know you to be
You'll find me regardless.
And then when you see me across the room
You will call me near to you
With that smile
I have seen in more dreams than I can count
And you’ll let me hold you
Press my body against you long enough
To be sure
That you are made of
Flesh and blood
And the skies, thoughts and signs have guided us
Into each other’s arms once more.

​Charity

love is the elixir that she bathes in
dances, dreams and aches in.
the ancient magic
that stirs in her
the dew on the grass
the wisp of a cloud
that travels past,
lives is this girl
that you desire
but can never
fully grasp
as
she is the one
that soars in a dream
back to her sleeping body
soundly within
the lines
and rhymes of poetry
she is
the divine
awakened mystery
sublime
enchanting
outside of time
she is the distant desire 
in your mind
for what you would have
never planned
and cannot understand

just take a breath
and take her hand

trust that all is well
and you will not utterly lose yourself
to a girl
who bathes in the well 
of love.

You'll only lose yourself
just enough
to find
what distant inside
You always knew
you wanted

from the beginning.


Charity