September 09th, 2005

​Fri, Sep 9, 2005, 10:36 AM
to Sweet
like a cigarette

here i am
passing quietly by
the place I promised myself
I would not go again
I have no self control
when it comes to this
lack of rationality
and I think of you
and find myself
lingering over a picture
of your smile
I swore
I'd walk
away
not look at your face
not one more day
of this frustration can I bare...
knowing I'm here
knowing you're there
and I can't change the way things are
or the way things are not
between us
but I will admit your poetry
is one of my favorite addictions
that and
your random acts
of interest and indifference
I need you like a cigarette
breathe you in
choke on the smoke
relax in the bliss
think of all the things...
 I miss
enjoying the break
enjoying the fix
while it slowly kills me
and I know
I will do it again
just the same as I am sure
I will
find myself here
reading these words
................ once more

as the need for the one

I cannot have

makes me question

what love is even for...