side stepping emotions

​ Aug 23, 2005 12:02 PM

Falling down
stumbling out the door
of this futile love
as I push you up
against the wall
in the very back corner of my mind
another feeble attempt to leave you behind
indifference
and a callous phrase
from the one that once gave me
a little more faith in man's ways
sidestepping emotions
and ideas of us
that bring more hurt
than I care to admit
to you, myself or anyone really at this point
as I sit here once again
feeling forgettable
unbeautiful
and I've wasted too many thoughts on you to count
if I had the time even
I would not take it now
I'm just not resilient enough
to allow myself to love
someone that I'd rather push up
against a wall
in the very back corner of my mind.