stopped for a while

Picking up the pieces
... it's gonna take a while
putting back together
everything...  I never meant to
fuck up along the way
 but I stopped
I stopped for a while
and alot of things unraveled
but I ...
   am back together
and that's the first time
in along time
that I can say that

sometimes we need to pull away
break down
fall apart
and I had my day
to fade
just like everyone does
at some point

but I
    came back
just like
everyone should
                    at some point

and my house is a mess
and my finances
                  are torched...
and I really could be in much better shape myself

but inside
for the first time
in what has been one very
 very long night...
I feel that all is right.

I can't bring back the things that I've lost
but I will no longer bare the cost
and let the pain of yesterday
wear me down today

I know it's gonna take a while
it's been much too long
since I've been on top of
all that daily shit
we all have to do
     to get by

but inside
       for the first time
    in a long time
I am absolutely sure
            I'm alright

and right now
that sense of clarity
purpose, peace and self awareness
matters more to me
than anything
I screwed up along the way
to get to the place that I am
                                     today.
--
Charity