the fear that you call love

Thu, May 26, 2005, 3:26 PM

  the fear that you call love

you are doing your best
I try not to forget
I cannot be to demanding
on your lack of understanding
of who the hell you think you are
or what you think of me
you are trying to let go
a little
I'll give you that
you held me so damn tight for so damn long!
and for a while it felt like love
now it feels more like fear
fear of you fear of me
what I' am capable of and
what we could accomplish together or apart
I'm sorry for you that you do not
know your self
or all the amazing things you are made of and capable of
but I cannot let your narrow mind
control me
just because you can't wrap your logical
thought pattern around all that I am
and can be when given a little room to breathe
does not mean that  I can allow your fears
to control my life anymore
We are two separate people you and I
and I know we've chosen to take
steps together in this walk of life
I cannot let your choices, invalidate mine
If you can't let me be impossible and make my own mistakes
then it's the same as you not trusting me
and believing in my ability to guide my own life
and you held me so tight for so long
and for a while it felt like love
but now it just feels like fear
your fear of you your fear of me
and all my dynamic possibility
but I cannot let this fear that you call love
control my life
any more.

Charity