Was that the sun...

Was that the sun 
sneaking through the kitchen window
casting it's yellow smile on the wall
was that the wind
teasing like hands through my hair
with the faint smell of fall
was that the morning 
that crept through my bedroom window
announcing that another day has come

was that the evening
the darkening sky
filled with stars as bright
as a glistening look in your eye
was that the world 
continuing to spin
and the moon and the sun in the sky 
as they have always been
was that life living still
and time preceding
onward without stopping

could it be that days carry on
and seasons change throughout the year 
and night turns into dawn
even without you here
and I would not have thought
that the universe would continue
or even I
as small as I may be
in the whole realm of all
could wake and leave my dreams 
and step from one day to the next
without you here with me

was that the sun
shining through my kitchen window
casting it's yellow smile
on my face
was that smell of fall and the change of seasons 
continuing in this place...
is it right that life should move forward and 
that I should go on too
when I miss you more than ever before
and my heart will not stop aching 

at the thought

of autumn

without you.

Charity 2005