for it will want

​What can I say
A heart will betray a mind
You know
for it will want
what we know 
has let go
of us
but
What can I say
I cannot choose to feel
another way
that what I do
here in my heart
is only you
it was not a decision
just something that happened...
And I am
finished trying not to love you
because loving you
is breath
it's life
it is what I am
who I am
my morning, my day, my night
you smile
your face
your eyes
and the essence of all you are
is tangled within my heart
tangled
the way 
you promised
one day
to tangle your hands in my hair
to tangle your
body with mine
we are entwined
my heart
refuses to give you up
and no one else will do
but you.
I never thought
that I would be one
to live alone
but being alone is so much better than
being with anyone
that is not you.
being alone
is so much better
than I ever
thought that it could be
now that I have made peace
with the fact
that
there is only
you for me
now that I've tried everything
to break 
from this want
from this need 
for the way
only you ever made
 me feel...
And now I know
I'd rather be alone
than ever
love anyone
that is not you.