Something New

Were we friends
When it all began
Will we ever be again?
I miss the you, I hardly knew
I miss the one
I began to love -
(But feared to follow through)
I miss everything I knew
And never knew
Of you.
But peace is good
And I have it today
The music is soft
And the lyrics awake
The poetry
In me ~
And as I write
I contemplate
These truths of life
And how I make mistakes
I do
(Like everyone)
And I've made a few
Rather catastrophic ones 
Concerning you.
If I'd followed my heart
Instead of my fears
Perhaps 
I'd be lying next to you
Tonight
Instead of wondering
If you're ok
Some place 
Somewhere
Far away
Tonight.
I take missteps
(Like anyone)
And all I can do
Is just try to move 
On and not do
The same
Damn thing 
Again.
I can decide
That when
Something like Love
Meanders my way once more
I will not fight it 
Or be afraid ...
I'll stay
And see how
The whole love thing plays out -
I'm ready to accept this truth right now
And that is ~
There's not much that I can do about
The past.
But I can change the now ~
And this change 
I make today
Will take me
To the very best
Of what ever come next
Regardless of what that future is
(Or who I may or may not
End up with)
It's good to not be afraid
To dive
All the way
Deep down in.
I'm no longer afraid
To dive deep in.
And that is something I have never
Thought, felt or said before ~
I am not afraid to love 
Anymore.
Charity ​