Uncharted Life

It seams so rare
that we have a chance in life
to see the universe
from a completely different
perspective
to explore a realm
of life and humanity
otherwise untraveled
and unchosen by our selves.
But it happens
and we are pulled
out of our element
beyond our comfort zone
into unchartered days
called upon to live in ways
we never imagined.
It can be frightening
and more difficult
than it seems like life should be
But I am beginning to realize
having faced one
just such experience
that it is more of an opportunity
than I would have previously thought.
A chance to step outside myself
see so far beyond my life
and the path I thought I had chosen
as if becoming so open
suddenly released
from the box I had agreed to live within
not realizing how amazing
all could be
on the outside
of my own reality.
I think it has made me better
I still have so much to learn
but I am glad for the difference
that I have seen
because now I know
how much more I am capable of
How much more I can accomplish
when the stakes are high
How hard I can work
for a purpose.
It's so strange
because now that this challenge
is seemingly over
atleast for the time being
I cannot go back
I cannot be who I was before
And I am finally
for the first time in my life
becoming aware of the fact
that if I had the chance
I would not want
to go back.


Charity April 2005