Flesh, Blood, Thought and Forgetting

I was meant to
Follow you into the night
I know that.
I was meant to dive deep into the depths of the blackness
And bring you light
(In a moment when not a damn thing in your life felt right)
I was meant to reach for you
I was meant to touch your face
I was meant to meet your eyes
And bring you back from that far off place ~
But how?
Tell me how
(If possible
Tell me
Now.)
I was meant to dive all
The way down
Into the worst
Of the curse
with you.
And bring you back truly alive.
And willing to give
Something more than mere survival a try.


I was meant to wake you
I was meant to take you
Home.
With me.
I think...


Or were you the one
meant to return for me for me?
(Humanity makes it so easy to forget)
We had it all sorted out
Before we left
the other side...
To enter this space, this time.
So clear
So fearless
So right.
And now here I stand
Flesh, blood, thought and forgetting
Was I meant to be the one searching
Or to be the one waiting?
And so
Unsure
I wait.
Hating the passage of time
With your lips
So far from mine
And yet if I follow you
Into your night
Would I also be here, still waiting
When
You arrive?

Charity Janisse
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